So that's how you face situations.

You change topics. Try to make me think about other stuff.

It hurts so much to think that you can only do this.

Why had I expected so much?

I feel bad to let you wait for me
and you are important
Conan is so coooool in 800th chapter ^^
Don't be upset with anymore!

I am important. Everyone is.

You forgot the "important with me".

I'm really messed up.

It's really hard to talk to you anymore. With every letter that I type, some voice in my head seems to whisper to me "Stop, before you regret it."

Maybe that voice is right. Maybe I should stop. It hurts so much, thinking that you always treated me like just an acquaintance, someone who is just annoying you by always blabbering to you online.

No other person would have forget a meeting. Even if their schedule is packed, even if they're only acquaintances, even if they can't make it, they would at least inform the other party.

It took 1 day for you to forget. Just 1 day.

Maybe you don't deem me as someone important. I'm probably an annoying acquaintance, that's all. Forgot about our meeting? It's fine, I texted her already.

You never knew how I waited for you, going up and down the escalators, rushing for the first time I went down, thinking that I was late, and that you would be there already.

No, you weren't.

You never came.

I went back up, hoping that you would send another text, apologising with sincerity and mentioning that you would immediately drop by.

It never came too.

Just sorry, I feel really guilty.

I'm trembling now, but blinking furiously to keep back my feelings, about to explode.

I'm afraid.

It must really be painful waiting for your loved one to come back into your arms, when that loved one is so far away...

True, a real long hug is the only cure for that heartburn.

"No, not those stupid one armed hugs. Or those hugs that only last for like a second. I want a real, long hug. One where you just don’t want to let go. One where you feel safe in that person’s arms, and that everything is okay. Or that everything will be okay. I want a hug that will remind me that everything will get better. I want a hug from someone who I know I can count on to always be there for me. I want a real hug not just from anyone, but from you.

(via bits-oflove)"

Quoted from Onii's tumblr.

Awesome.

I can't go for council chalet now.

Even after I promised myself that I would go for both council camp and chalet last year, after my batchmates told me how much fun they had and how close they have bonded with each other, after I told myself that I wouldn't let any other event clash with my council camp or chalet.

I didn't go for Xi'an trip in order to go for council camp. Which disappointed my parents. A lot.

But I still went for council camp.I didn't want to miss it again, and miss the opportunity to bond with others.

But now, I can't even go for council chalet. Just because I had "went for council camp". Quoted from my father.

What are you all going to do at the chalet?

Bond of course!

No. I don't allow you to go.

I understand about the safety issues. I understand your side of the argument.

But it just doesn't help to ease the pain and hurt...

All I want for Christmas, is YOU <3

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Mariah Carey - All I Want for Christmas is You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

All I want for Christmas is you... baby

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That's my only wish this Christmas ;)

Bummer.

I received the news yesterday from Cheryl High that 9 subjects was REALLY CANCELLED. And that I had already spent money on buying the books for 9 subject combination. WHY WAS NINE SUBJECTS CANCELLEDDDDDDDDD.

I was really anticipating a whole class of students taking 9 subjects together, and creating new memories as a class where classmates will understand each other. I really wanted to be in a class like 305'11, where I heard that you can feel a different aura of the class when you walk in.

But I can't now. I can't even study my most anticipated subject, pure geography.

What a bummer.

Onii. Must. Really. Like. Posts. Dedicated. To. Him.

THEN IMOTO SHALL DEDICATE ANOTHER POST TO ONII! HIIII ONII XD

Haha, imoto don't know what to say, it's 11.32pm at night! Haha, I bet onii's still talking to onee though~ Time wouldn't affect you two at all ;))))))

Ehhhhh, did onii tell onee of imoto's blog??? ONII CAN GO TELL XD HEYYYYYY ONEEEEEEEEE XD XD XD

Onee, do you have a blog? Imoto want to read? Onii's too~ Hehe, IMOTO'S BACK TO BLOGGING AGAIN.

Whoopee~(((:

3RD FAC OUTING TODAY~ XD

FAC Party RULES! Fun and CRAZAYYYYYYY!!!

Met up at Jurong Point for movie and lunch. After getting out of the MRT station, I spotted Lianghsi inside the mall already, with his back facing me. I rushed forward, wanting to chide him for waiting INSIDE of the mall, instead of the originally planned OUTSIDE of the mall, before he just walked off to the right without noticing that i was just right behind him. Oh well, I tried to chase after him and get his attention by flailing my hands in front of his face, but he totally surprised me by just continuing to walk without any kind of recognition of me. Luckily, after riding the escalator up and then calling his name when I saw him picking up his phone to call, he then turned around and saw me. Epic much?

Cheryl High came later, but Cheryl Low was nowhere to be found. Lianghsi even headed inside the MRT station, just beside the gates(machines) and stood there like a model waiting for her. Hehe, Cheryl High and I giggled as I took photos of him, and when he turned around, we just both feigned innocence. It worked (: We continued to wait, but Cheryl Low didn't answer to our calls and messages, and time was ticking by before our movie would start soon. So the three of us decided to head up to get the tickets for PUSS IN BOOTS 3D~ before Cheryl came to save time. Chatted and went slightly hyper with Cheryl High while waiting for the entrance to the theatre to be opened, but i can't help noticing that Lianghsi was really worried about Cheryl Low's whereabouts and whether she will be coming. He was really concerned about her (: HEHE

Throughout the movie, Cheryl High and I kept laughing, and Lianghsi was slightly annoyed at first and chided at me to not laugh so loudly in the cinema, thought there were only about 10-15 people inside. HAHA. But I took no noticed and instead punched him playfully in the shoulder anyway. I was pretty worried for him, since he mentioned being unable to watch something in 3D for long periods of time and needed to take the 3D glasses out for a while to rest his eyes.

After the movie, we met Stephanie, and then headed to Kopitiam for lunch. Lianghsi ordered first, and literally wolfed down a plate of chicken rice(after calling it a scam since it was a small bowl of rice on a big plate HAHA) even though he had finished a full regular coke and ate popcorn, which I bought to share between the 3 of us for the movie. The rest of us just waited and chatted, before Cheryl Low texted me that she was coming, and I told Lianghsi to met her outside and bring her in, which he did so willingly. I shared LOOKS with Cheryl High and Stephanie, and yup, they agreed.

Cheryl Low soon came, but without Lianghsi. She then told us that he was outside and had spotted her and patted her on the head. SOME LOVE THERE! XD Haha, then we filled her in about his worry and concern for her all before she came. We, the girls, soon ordered our food after agreeing on loser ordering with a game of zhongjimima. Cheryls ordered first, before Stephanie and I. Lianghsi just rested with head on the table while we ate and chatted, until WE STARTED TALKING ABOUT CRUSHES AND THEN WE HAD TO SAY OUR STORIES. Cheryl Low started first, Cheryl High had none, Stephanie mentioned liking someone in Council, and then Cheryl Low commented that my story was interesting before urging me to start. (: I think somewhere in the middle of our chat, Lianghsi went out of the kopitiam, and came back at the right moment where i was talking about SY confessing to me through his hand drawn book, and then he started smiling in a cute manner. HAHA. He also gave me a SUPER TROLL FACE when I forced him to finish the popcorn, but to no avail. That had all of us laughing out loud XD

Lianghsi left early, to our disapointment, at 1.30pm. We then headed to Toy Outpost, and then walked back to the new Jurong Point, where Stephanie left early too. Then the 3 of us, Cheryl High, Low and I, went to MacDonalds' for a chat. Somehow Cheryl Low got Yufeng(DADDY<3)'s phone number, and we decided to give him a surprise call:

Hello, is this Yufeng? Today is the International Spread Love Day! Would you like some love?

First time, Cheryl High called, because she lost the game of zhongjimima, but she failed before reading the full message because we all started laughing so hard and giggled away.

Second time, I called, because I lost the game too, but failed to finish saying the words of "International Spread Love Day" before I caught the laughter from the Cheryls and I too burst into laughter and hung up. But no worries, we revealed who we were after and even wished him a great day at work. WE LOVE YOU DADDY<3 Daddy said he loves us too (: He then texted us saying that he had quitted his job. ):

Going back, Cheryl High and I tried to find Cheryl Low in the train after getting off to wave goodbye, when we found that she just DISAPPEARED. WHERE WERE YOU CHERYL??? (: Haha, then I too tried to wave goodbye to Cheryl High after she got on another MRT, but failed too.

3RD FAC OUTING:CHERYL HIGH AND CHERYL LOW, LIANGHSI, STEPHANIE AND I. Great time we had!

Next outing: DADDY HERE WE COME <3

After re-reading all my blog posts that i wrote before my secondary school life, it dawned on me:

I changed so much.

I used to be so automatically hyper and had plenty of BFFS in school to talk about in my blog. But now, somehow life just got harder, and BFFs are hard to find now. Conflicts happened, and I got so lost, and I can't get back up again.

Ek Hwee, Dawn, Sakinah, Yiling, Sze Teng, Brenda, Hao Yu, Zhong Zhi, Carmen, Sze Ming, Le Min, gosh I miss you guys SO MUCH. But knowing now you guys have probably found new BFFs in your new school life, I can't help wondering if you had forgotten about me.

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART <3

Found this really interesting piece of information from my cousin(KAMIN XD):


IF you were born on the:

1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.
2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are number 2.
3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are number 3.
4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.
5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.
6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.
7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.
8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are number 8.
9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.

Number 1
You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous
on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You
always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most
likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are
likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most
likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a
spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you
will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of
the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in
your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you &
your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a
pioneer, independent & original your best match is 4, 6, 8 while a good match
would be with 3,5,7

Number 2
No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You
day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for
every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change
according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of
musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet
as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a
sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a businessperson. You
are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you
settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you
are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will
sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad
vision. You make a well-balanced person. Your best match is 2, 7,5, and 9 no
other people can put up with you!!!

Number 3
You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots
of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope
with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you
would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a
point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are
not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But
once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You
always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and
problems but they won't be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love
money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look
after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being
generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom,
creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!!
Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5

Number 4
You are very stubborn, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in
life, very cool and helpful. You might repel people away from you, you may cause
nuisance to others if you area man, as you gifted are with understanding other
people's problems. If you are a girl, you excel in your studies and arts. If you
are a guy you spend most of your time with girl friends and you tend to have too
much fun with your mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and
get on with their life and you will be left empty handed. So be careful! You
love to spend. Your positive side is that you are always around to help family
and friends. You always fall in love with those younger than you. You often live
with disappointments but you will take good care of your family. You need to be
careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart (ahaks!). And
beware of your relationships too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a
hit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order. Your best match 1, 8. Good
match 5, 6, and 7

Number 5
You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your
enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will
be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will
always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help
your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down
you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships - even if you are
married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with
anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You
learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good
match 6, 8.

Number 6
Ooopppss... You were born to enjoy! You don't care about others. I mean you
always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either
education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people
who you think are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your
mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But
if you are a number 6 men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships
until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged
early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person
of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and
after all you can heal this world's wounds to make peace for everyone because
you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step
further.. Your best match 7, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5

Number 7
You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art,
singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value
your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain
age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s faces
lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have
everything in your life but with worries throughout your lifetime. You need to
get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you
might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone's joy. Your
best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4

Number 8
You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand
you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the
one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way
through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who
will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very
reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and
always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often
late), then your had lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems
such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly-
disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take
you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your
Best match 1, 4 and 8. Good match 5

Number 9
You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong,
physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will
think it's still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there!
Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will
have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very
naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been
involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when
you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho
type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or
banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but
you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are
humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve
targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model
for everyone. Your best match 3, 5, 6, and 9. Good match 2

(:

OHMYGOSH MY BLOG HAS BEEN DEAD FOR ALMOST A YEAR.

Hehe, this post is dedicated to onii, who's probably the only one reading the blog now (:

HI THERE ONII! <3 don't rawr :D YESH I RE-OPENED MY BLOG FOR ONII KAY.

Haha, the posts below are mostly those that I posted on my blog before I lost myself, so onii read kay~ Imoto was very different before ;)

Until the next post then? Onii must follow imoto's blog kay!

<3 MEOW.

WHERE'S ONEE????? DX

Hey. This is OFFICIALLY the 2nd day of SCHOOL. Whoopee!
(first day)I missed my friends and council SO MUCHH, I basically just almost screamed when I saw Cheryl and the rest. AND I RUSHED TO HUG YANLING AND KEHUI!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha, council duty changed for me. I DIDN'T GET SEC 1s' CLASS!!!!! I got 311 intstead. Oh well, there's always next year. I WILL BE SEC 3 THEN!!!
Being a senior is great, awesome, fabulous. All the sec 1s were all so blurblur on the first day of school. They should stood there, staring into space, all sotong blur one. SO CUTEEEEEEE~~~
After council meeting, I FINALLY GOT TO HELP THEM!!! Yay, then it was class council duty time. I'm with 403's Wang Shufan. (: HIIEEE SENIOR! :D
Then went back to class, Mdm Tan is our form teacher again!! HAHA! We talked about class rules and motto,and I grouped up with Yanling, Kehui and Jingchao. I WENT SUPER HIGH LORH. Jingchao laughed until she had a headache. (:
Forgot the rest, just remember going to WEST MALL with beloved Jingchao and Jasmine. Ate lunch at Kopitiam, drank coke and chat like SIAO.We sat for 1 hour plus there.(:
Walked around the place, it was like super smallllllll~~
Went home after that.(:
2nd day was lessons, ohgosh. Chinese was this relief teacher, Mrs Zhong. Mrs Zhuang is still our chinese teacher. Goodie. Maths was still MR CHEE!!! OMG OMG OMG!!! HE'S SUPER NICEE~~~~~ Haha!
Recess!!!!! So hungry leh.
Music lesson~ Mdm Lim was our music teacher. A complete replica of Ms Yeo. Ohgosh.
Geog lesson. Mdm Priyanka was our new geog teacher. I prefer Mdm Poon though. (:
CHEM LESSON. Mdm Tan's here~~ We learnt about the physical quantities and measuring today. :D
Went back home with Steffi talking about JAPAN. JAPAN IS FRIGGING AWESOME!!!